Agatha Christie has given more pleasure in bed than any other woman.

Nancy Banks-Smith

Currently, I find myself at this point in my life where I doubt every decision I make. The previous year knocked me down in surprise. Nowadays I am an active job seeker (the very thought of a job interview makes me nauseous); trying to learn how to drive (my P. nearly had a heart attack after I drive his precious car for an hour), and finally, I have returned to yoga practice after a long break (yoga hurts, trust me). Although I’m a proud person and don’t like to ask for help, self-improvement is my goal this year which may be challenging. I believe in the principle ‘if you didn’t achieve this on your own, you didn’t achieve anything’.

Furthermore, in my spare time at home, I love dancing at home to pop music when no one is looking, having debates with myself (it’s very refreshing), reading at any possible moment, and watching Korean dramas.

The idea for ‘anotherpileofbooks’ arose after my P. persuade me because with my low self-esteem and introverted personality I hadn’t considered it at all. So today I write with my soul on my shoulder, shy words yet honest to make my way out of that lethargic feeling and slowly reach for the little desires I carry deep in my heart.

What pushes me to write? I do find the creation process itself very alluring and writing is something that I always wanted to do. Despite the fact I didn’t know how to begin with, I took the first tentative step. As consequence, with the carefulness, of a rookie climbing a steep wall, anxious about every move and excited about every small success, I put together every word. Whichever result, I continuously learn from the mistakes I encounter every day. Therefore, I will stay positive with my head up a little bit higher than usual.

As John Dufrense wrote in The lie that tells a Truth ‘Well, the plain truth is that if you want to write, you can. And if you want to write but you don’t write, you’re inviting madness…’

So for those, who think that they have something to write, just do it (it sounds like a cheap slogan, but it’s worth a try). If you ever start questioning yourself I recommend ‘Stop worrying; start writing’ by Sarah Painter which gives me the courage and allows me to face my doubts with less concern, furthermore I would like to mention ‘First you write a sentence ‘ by Joe Moran, which motivates me to improve myself. There are a few other books that I read with delight from time to time to keep the momentum going but these books are the ones I value now the most. Despite my tension, trembling hands, and tightening stomach, I gather my bravery like water through a sieve and take small steps.

Forward.

Yours L.