If we all did the things we are really capable of doing, we would literally astounded ourselves.
Thomas Edison
Recently, I’ve started to feel a lack of vitality (to be more precise, I have a kind of over-indulgence in action – a kind of passivity in movement). This doesn’t mean that my enthusiasm has disappeared, but it’s difficult for me to start any creative activity, comparable to a concrete wall I can’t jump over (dear God, even my brain is not that physically fit).
My level of self-confidence and courage to express myself is starting to fail me. When I’m looking for inspiration and trying to articulate my own opinion, I wonder if it’s the right one and if I’m not ridiculous. As a person who is forever analysing everything. This is quite troublesome, given the level of conviction in my point of view. Often, my decision is made in haste, which involves a lot of disappointment and the temptation to throw everything to hell.
Does being a woman have to be so complicated? Bloody hell!!! Of course it does… (expectations!)
I understand that this is the so-called imposter syndrome (like the one in AmongUs?). It’s developed to the point where I can think of a whole bunch of unnecessary things that can wait, from watching funny youtube videos, drinking another coffee, arranging T-shirts in a drawer (they’re only arranged for the first few minutes), checking the condition of my facial skin (the condition of my clogged pores and blemished wrinkles don’t fill me with optimism), trying hard to ignore any kind of writing process.
Yet, when I sit down to write, I suddenly become calm, like I made the right choice.
There are so many wonderful books to read, piece of writing to put up that are waiting for me and I sit and grumble because “it doesn’t make sense”, “I don’t have the time”, “it sucks”, “give yourself a break” etc…
I don’t want you, my dear readers, to think I’m a pitiful person or to feel sorry for my. I just want to let you know that I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel (not so much at the end of my life, my whole life ahead of me, for goodness sake).
All I needed was courage. The courage to take action and not be afraid of failure.
Both optimists and pessimists contribute to society. The optimist inventsthe aeroplane, the pessimist the parachute.
George Bernard Shaw
It required me to take some kind of a first step, a really tiny step.
I wrote my first sentence then another one, and another one; unrolled my yoga mat, and started some light practice; opened a book from my reading list and read the first chapter; shaved my legs (God save me!); went to bed earlier; meditate regularly; and so on.
I’ve taken small steps like this, just a few, for good measure. These baby steps have always gathered dust in my mental ‘attic’. And I repeat these small steps every day until they get into my blood.
I try not to get distracted. When I lose sight of the goal, I simply start again. Stopping is not an option, even when I’m tempted to fall back into old habits.
Then, I’m planning to add another small step.
And so on, and so on…
To give you some of my courage, I definitely recommend some of these books. Wonderful start to a brighter mind and a little bit less heavy burden on your shoulders.
“COMING ALIVE is an inspiring, practical book to help us wake up to how we are being held back in life and to energise us to finally achieve our full potential.
From the international bestselling authors of THE TOOLS and GOOP’s resident psychotherapists comes a ground-breaking new book to help us overcome the side of us that is destructive and negative to find a deep level of happiness and fulfilment.
Just as we are all motivated and driven by a positive desire to be our best, live by our values and to follow our dreams, so too are we all held back by a negative, destructive and fear-driven side of ourselves. It is this part of us that compromises our ability to realise our potential and be truly happy – the side of us that the authors called our Part X.
We all have a Part X and we cannot get rid of it, but we can learn to manage it with the help of the four simple tools in this book. When we do this we free ourselves from whatever is holding us back to create a fulfilled life and anything we want or need to achieve becomes truly possible. The four tools in this book help break Part X’s four main negative influences in our lives, namely:
– Destructive impulses
– Exhaustion and apathy
– Negative thoughts and demoralisation
– Pain and hurt”
“I write despite being a worried writer and an anxious person. Over the years I have developed tricks and techniques to help me to get my work done, and through interviewing wonderful authors on the Worried Writer podcast, I gained further insights and confidence. I decided to put everything I have learned into a book, in the hope that it might help other worried writers.”
Sarah Painter
“The Japanese phenomenon that teaches us the simple yet profound lessons required to liberate our real selves and find lasting happiness.
The Courage to be Disliked shows you how to unlock the power within yourself to become your best and truest self, change your future and find lasting happiness. Using the theories of Alfred Adler, one of the three giants of 19th century psychology alongside Freud and Jung, the authors explain how we are all free to determine our own future free of the shackles of past experiences, doubts and the expectations of others. It’s a philosophy that’s profoundly liberating, allowing us to develop the courage to change, and to ignore the limitations that we and those around us can place on ourselves.
The result is a book that is both highly accessible and profound in its importance.”
“Andy Puddicombe, a former Buddhist monk, the voice of Headspace, and the United Kingdom’s foremost mindfulness expert, is on a mission: to get people to take ten minutes out of their day to sit in the here and now. Like his readers and students, Andy began his own meditation practice as
a normal, busy person with everyday concerns, and he has since designed a program of mindfulness and guided meditation that fits neatly into a jam-packed
daily routine proving that just ten minutes a day can make a world of difference. Accessible and portable, The Headspace Guide to Meditation and Mindfulness
offers simple but powerful meditation techniques that positively impact every area of physical and mental health: from productivity and focus, to stress and anxiety relief, sleep, weight loss, personal relationships…the benefits are limitless. The result?
More headspace, less stress. Andy brings this ancient practice into the modern world, tailor-made for the most time starved among us.”
This book captivated me now, and I am adding it as a good way to put you in a better mood
“Enter the world of the hidden folk – and discover the most whimsical, enchanting and heart-warming tale you’ll read this year, featuring the intrepid Emily Wilde. . .
Emily Wilde is good at many things: she is the foremost expert on the study of faeries; she is a genius scholar and a meticulous researcher who is writing the world’s first encylopaedia of faerie lore. But Emily Wilde is not good at people
So when she arrives in the hardscrabble village of Hrafnsvik, Emily has no intention of befriending the gruff townsfolk. Nor does she care to spend time with another new arrival: her dashing and insufferably handsome academic rival Wendell Bambleby
But as Emily gets closer to uncovering the secrets of the Hidden Ones – the most elusive of all faeries – she also finds herself on the trail of another mystery: who is Wendell Bambleby, and what does he really want? To find the answer, she’ll have to unlock the greatest mystery of all – her own heart.”
Yours L.
another pile of books 
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